Fertility, infertility, what is it?

What is it about that? Fertility. All girls dream about being a Mom one day. No one tells us that some this happens very naturally for while others have to go to great lengths just to hold a baby in thier arms while others never get the opportunity.

I see woman who are so excited because they accidentally (how?) got pregnant or they did it on the first month out. Others try for a while and then start on the how come we are not pregnant yet journey. Some this point comes earlier in life than others. For example, one person I know thought they would be an easy case and now are so disappointed that they are not KU (knocked up) by the 5th cycle. Others use OPK (ovulation Predictor kits) along with BBT (Basel Body thermometer) to chart thier cycles.

Some have experienced loss after loss yet they remain hopeful. I have never experienced loss yet I can feel some of how they are feeling.

My experience is a bit different. J wasn't really sure he wanted more children. I thought that I did. J was wishy washy with me so I didn't know where he stood. One day he said that he was agreeable. I started having some pain and went to the GYN. She treated me for 2 months with a wait and see approach. Well, I went in for surgery and came out with a lot of bad news. I have stage 4 Endo. I went on to 6 months of Lupron with 7 months of Birth Control pills. See, when you are on Lupron, you shouldn't get pregnant. My pills end in just 2 short weeks and then we will see what my body does post Lupron.

You see Lupron is an interesting drug. It puts your body into Menopause. Some woman have a return of thier cycles within 45 days while others take up to 6 months to return to normal. While I am hoping that I am on the quicker side of things, I am preparing for the worst. My Doc states that the pills should help me to return quicker to the normal state. I sure as heck hope so. My sex drive is low, my patience level is non existent, my crying meter gets regularly drowned. Normal would be nice. Bye bye to Mood Swings, vaginal dryness, tears for no reason and all the lovely other side effects.

I hope and I pray that this ends up in a cute bundle of joy for me to hold.