Long time, no post!

Since the last time I posted, those twinges became a spunky reality that are now 2!  They are wonderful toddlers that love to help around the house and have perfect manners - well, as long as you give them everything they want, don't make them share and just give in to their every whim!

In the last 2 years, I have done a lot of growing and so have they and it is time to get rid of the weight.  Starting tomorrow, I will be following the Zone and the Advocare 24 day challenge.  We have family pictures in August and I want to knock them out of the water and be proud of them.

I am currently working out an hour or so 5-6 days a week and will start in earnest with the clean diet.  There is some accountability as I am doing this as part of a challenge.  I even took before pictures - although I won't be sharing them until I get closer to goal at 160.

First goal is to be under 200 by end of July and then a 8-10 pound weight loss each month until I get to 160 and my purple dress.

One day at a time is how the weight came on and how it will come off.  See you soon for another update!

IVF Meds! Yikes!!

We are starting on week 2 of BCP. Today, I got a call from the pharmacy and about fell over with the cost of the medications. For people that do not have insurance to cover the cost of fertility medications, it is expensive! I spent a portion of today going over the list and checking to see where else I could get them filled. I was able to save about 50% by having them called in at various places. It is amazing to me that the cost of medications can vary so much!

I have also been looking at dates. ER is currently set for my Grandmothers birthday and if we do conceive on that date, then the baby will be due on our anniversary! It just seems like the timing would be so perfect. I vacilate between being so excited and then so scared. I am excited at the chance to be pregnant with our child but so scared that it wont take, that we will have wasted all that money or that we will get a BFP and then loose the baby. It is such a wave of emotions and they come and go.

I am so scared. We have so much riding on this and we are in the best hands, really. Dr. Knockmeup has the greatest success rates and the lab is great too. I am sure that we are in the best hands! As my nurse K, says, YOU will get pregnant! The power of positive thinking. I have to talk with my boss about needing days off. I can only hope that they are in different weeks so that I can take less PTO. But, I will do whatever I have to do. I have been taking my vitamins regularly and not drinking cokes! I miss them but know that the water is better for me. I really need to start walking again. Whether we get pregnant or not, walking will really help me!

My appointments are set up and ready to go. J and I have to make some decisions on what to do with the leftovers, if there are any. We have to sign consents three times! Yikes. I am sure that it will all be okay. I just wish that the packet would come in the mail so that we can get all the consents to review.

On to other non IVF news, J is switching jobs! He is going from nights to days and to part time! YEAH! I am so excited!! We expected him to go to days next summer now it is here early. YEAH!!! Sorry,I am just a bit excited.

T is doing good in school so far. Still having to remind him but oh, well.

Well, I am off to bed. Good night!

A look into my future efforts to have a baby....

I will never be one of those people that can get knocked up with a little luck and just plain ol sex. I will never be accidentally pregnant.
My pregnancy will be very timed and very expensive.
There will be lots of doctors visit and drugs.
Drugs to calm my ovaries, drugs to make them super ovulate, drugs to thicken the home for my hopeful, future child.
There will be nothing natural or accidental or old fashioned about conception.
There will be lots of planning, lots of scheduling and lots of one on one time with Dr. Knockmeup.
Injection training wont be in my future but not because I wont be getting them but because my other half can do that.
My refrigerator will hold all the usual things plus the meds as they must be kept cold.
Good by caffeine, alcohol and exercise because this is just so expensive that nothing can upset the delicate balance of my body
Hello to hormones on high alert, weight gain just because and tears without reason.

As I told my mother the other day, we have already spent the other kids college fund before they get to college so why not spend this future one's? I am sure Dr. Knockmeup and his staff need a new painting in the waiting room or a boat or something.

Now, don't get me wrong, I LOVE Dr. Knockmeup. He is very caring, takes his time and is so helpful. It really makes it just a bit easier to write out that check.

Anyway, today is a bad day for wishing, wanting but not able to start down that road just yet.

20 lbs in 20 wks

Some of you may see the 20 lbs in 20 weeks icon to the right. See it, right over ........ there ---->>>>>>.

I follow Ash's blog. She has an inspiring tale and only has a few more pounds to lose before hitting triple digit weight loss. I decided to start with her on her challenge. So far, there are 141 of us that signed up. Want to loose some weight? Come on, join us!

Today, due to little ol Aunt Flo being here, I am up to 189. YUCK! Yesterday on the first official weigh in day it was 191. EVEN sadder. Why? Because at my doctors office, the gym and even home earlier this week it was 186. The whole losing weight thing will also help as we continue on our journey to get a healthy pregnancy. More updates on that to come!

One of the things that Ash wants us to do is to calculate your BMR. That is what you burn just sitting on your butt. Well, I burn 1623 just to keep this mass here. on. earth. I am eating about 1250 a day so, that means, that I am not even eating/exercising enough to loose 1 measly pound a week. I would ideally like to loose 2 pounds a week. So, that means that I have to burn an additional 620 ish calories every.single.day. I have started on that. I truly have.

See, for Lent this year, I was banned from giving up Fast Food by my son. He seems to have this fancy idea that Lent is an individual thing and that one should only give up something that will impact them and not others. He says that if I give up Fast Food then that precludes him from getting it since I wont even stop during Lent. Instead I gave up, being lazy. Lazy. Yes, you heard me. I went to the gym for 3 days the first week, 4 days the second and well, I am at 4 days this week although I need to get up to 5 days a week.

The hubby has been walking with me as well as the dogs. It is amazing how well the 4 legged children sleep at night/day when they have walked. This morning we did 5 miles. Wow. 5 miles!
The dogs they did 3. 1.5 miles to the track. Rest while Mom and Dad walked another 2 miles and then we all walked back home. Now, everyone but me is sleeping. Well, Tyler isn't sleeping because he is cleaning up his bathroom. Shudder. Boys.bathroom.shudder.

I double, dog, dare you to come on over and join Ash's is Fit 20 in 20 weeks.

Big headed people and other annoying things.

This week has been an exercise in stupid people....

1. Co worker - "Well, if you know so much, why don't you share with us?" Me: Well, you approved the eLearning discuss this and unsaid "And since you approved it, don't you think you might have actually watched IT?" But I restrained myself.

2. Judge - Forgot to rule on a couple of motions. Hello! Dumba$$.

3. Head trainer to DH: Well, Credentialing organization takes default on payments very seriously. You defaulted and I will have your card pulled, your boss notified and your record updated.

Note to large headed trainer - That is called job threatening. As much as you don't think it is, it is. Oh, and the Credentialing organization has NO policy such as default on payments. Thankyouverymuch. One pissed off wife made a call to said Credentialing organization and they are making a phone call to your boss to inform your lovely self absorbed self that you are WRONG.

4. HR people at unknown place. Um, federal law is just that FEDERAL. You cant make up policies that are not in tune with it. There is a this little itty bitty thing called enforcement. Get a grip and get over it.

5. 2nd job people - I think you are interfering with my ability to conceive. If this continues, I may just have to let you know about that and see if we can work out alternative options. Like it takes 2 and it cant happen when one is not available - Get it? Good. Glad we got that settled.

6. Octuplet Mom - um, Student Loans aren't enough to pay all your bills. Get a job. Stop having kids and stop making people believe that IVF is oh, so easy.

7. My body. Please decide to be normal. Just until I get KU. Then ya know, do whatever, just be normal. 28 days cycles, would be great. Maybe through in a little ovulation every 15 or so days in 28. Thanks. Glad we got that all worked out.

8. Oh yeah, body... losing weight and then gaining it back and then losing it again. Not cool. Knock it off and keep it off. Got it? Thankyou.

Rant over. Now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

Goals

I have two new goals which I am speeding toward.

1. Weight Loss - I am still trying to lose weight. I have been trying to loose weight for a long time. I made the observation that I am about 10 pounds away from what I was in Sept 2004. To aid in my goal attainment, I am going to start a work out tape - The Shred. A bunch of my online friends are trying it. I dont buy into the whole loose 20 pounds in 30 days but I do think that if I do it for 3-4 days a week that I might loose 5 or so pounds in that time frame.

The girls check in on each other every Friday. As you all can track with me, I have a picture of my goals to the left. I would love to loose the whole weight so that I can be a healthier person for when we get pregnant.

2. Pass the PMP Exam - I am scheduled to take the exam on the Sept 4th. I start studying in earnest this week. I have exactly 4 weeks to study and learn all that I can about how they do the test. I need to pass this test. I need to pass this test for me and for work. Will I get anything for doing it for work, nope. But it has been on my goal list for several years and I need to achieve it. I know I know the material and I know that I will pass it. I just have classic anxiety leading up to a test that has cost me several thousands to prepare for.

So, updates to come.